So, I have been away for a few days and that’s because a) ‘hectic time’ is back in school and b) I just wasn’t in the mood for blogging. Massive writers’ block. (and confidence issues) So today I thought I’d just rant a bit ( it starts off real deep, but quickly turns around, don’t worry 😉 )
1) I am terrified for the future.
Yeah, I am absolutely terrified for the future. In a year I’m supposed to be going to a different school and will leave all of my friends. And, as much as I hate my school, I really don’t want to leave. It’s become a safe place for me, as I know that there will always be someone whom I get along with and to whom I can talk to. I sometimes have full-on entire days of school – from 7AM to 8PM. And the people I’m with are different, depending on the shift. Usually, there’s at least one of my best friends that is with me during both of my shifts and I didn’t realize how lonely I am without her until yesterday. She’s not in the city for a few days and I was absolutely petrified. Yesterday, my shift without all my best friends was longer than the other one and I literally only looked at my phone, read and doodled. Nothing. I didn’t speak to anyone. And I am afraid that this ‘new school’ is going to be like that. Which petrifies me…
2) I have no idea what I want/am supposed to do after school.
What after I finish school? Do I pursue my dream of being a makeup artist, blogger and (hopefully by then) vlogger? Or do I just go the ‘safe’ route? I know one thing – I do not want a 9 – 5 job. Ever. Those traditional jobs just aren’t doing it for me. Uh – huh!
3) I am obsessed… (not with a TV show or person)
Yeah, I really like Sherlock and OUAT… But I’ve liked this poor guy for about 2 and a half years now. What’s wrong with me?!? (My friends say I’m obsessed…)
4) I want more makeup.
Again, we all do, don’t we? But, money is tight and not all of us can afford the $70 foundation. (also known as ‘prime blogging material’ to many…)
5) I wish I had more confidence.
Enough confidence to do a lookbook post/video because I have this crazy fun idea in my head but I just don’t have the confidence (nor the equipment) for it. Also, I have a fashion post in my drafts and I really like it, but, again, the confidence thing – to actually take the photos…
6) I wish people understood sarcasm. (and stopped getting mad over it)
Like, everybody. I can’t fathom into words how many times I’ve said something sarcastically, heard ‘Really?’ and had to say: ‘No, sarcasm.’ Like, seriously people! Please, for the love of God, start understanding sarcasm…
7) I wish guys weren’t so complicated.
[ Referring to the darling at no. 3, xo ]
8) I really don’t know what else to rant about…
Sorry… Nothing’s coming to mind. But I’m going to leave it here on purpose. 😉
And that’s it, there’s 8 little rants. Started off kinda deep but quickly escalated to funny. 😉
I’m sorry for this crappy, non-beauty post, but I just really wanted to rant a bit and didn’t want to miss a whole week, so… this was the result.
Have anything you want to rant about? Feel free to do it in the comments, I don’t judge. 🙂
Thank you so much for reading and I’ll (hopefully) see you soon. 😀